My Story of Sobriety
I am five years sober.
Yup. Most of you reading this may not be too surprised because we’ve met during my journey of spiritual self-discovery.
If you worked with me during my marketing-public relations days, this news might incite a spit-take. “Susan’s sober? No-o-o way.”
I’m writing this not to ring my bell.
This is the first time I’ve publicly shared my story of sobriety. For me, I see this milestone as a permanent change in my life’s tapestry. Like rewriting the code of my DNA.
I’m not here to judge because I was often that obnoxious, loud party girl. Alcohol did not treat me well. It unleashed a voice that said unkind things. It yelled. Poking and pointing out the things I did not have. The goals I missed. The body that I would never starve myself into. And the list would go on and on and on.
Writing this is exhausting. And heartbreaking.
Sobriety was birthed literally out of physical pain. Picture a phoenix rising and my flight began with the book, “you are here” by Thich Nhat Hanh.
Page after page I uncovered an entire universe I never knew existed. A universe where I didn’t have to blame myself or turn my body into a battlefield.
I could love ALL OF ME. Period.
This changed everything. How I feel about myself. My family. Friends. The way I recreate. Who I spend my time with. What I like doing. And not doing. How I rewind.
Now understanding what being an empath is all about, I realize that alcohol is one way to turn off all the noise. The chatter from other people’s energy. The chatter in my own head.
Now I walk towards my happy place in Nature. I downward dog amidst a parade of goats. Dance to disco tunes in my kitchen. Sing off-key while riffing on the guitar.
I witness sunrises with a clear head, even on Saturday and Sunday mornings.
When I’m feeling off or overwhelmed, I take the time to take care of myself. Because I’m a human, not a robot.
Do I mess up?
You bet.
Do I beret myself for not getting it right? Not the way I used to. I do my best to forgive and forget.
Being clean and clear brings me joy and that’s what this column is all about: How I found inner peace by connecting and unplugging in new and different ways.
Do you have a similar story to tell?
Something you’re proud of achieving, or experiencing?
I’d love to hear about it.
Give yourself permission to shout it from the highest mountain.
The world needs good news! The world needs you. All of you.
Much love and gratitude,
Susan
About Susan and 3C Clarity
Susan Tompkins is an Intuitive Life Coach, creator of Energy Art, and self-declared Sacred Rebel. The 3Cs of Clarity — circles, coaching, and change are offered to help Women live their Best Life. Inspired by Maine’s woods and waters, Susan conducts workshops, healing circles, 1:1 coaching sessions, and guided meditations for those seeking clarity.
